Ok, I've been a lazy butt and haven't posted in ages. So sue me, I have a very, very short attention span. :-P

1. [spell out your name with band names]

H Horrorpops
O Operation Ivy
P Paula Kelly
E Elada

E Emmet Swimming
L Letters to Cleo
I Interfuse
Z Zambonis
A Anti-Flag
B Bad Religion
E Elvis Costello
T Tuscadero
H Helicopter Helicopter

R Rasputina
O Outlets (the)
T Tugboat Annie
H Handsome Boy Modelling School

2) Have you ever had a song written about you? yeah, but then I broke his heart so now he won't play it for me and I'll never get to hear it
3) What song makes you cry? songs don't usually make me cry unless I'm already in the crying mood
4) What song makes you happy? Anything by Bad Religion
5) What do you like to listen to before bed? mellow trance mixes

a p p e a r a n c e
HEIGHT: 5'6"
WEIGHT: no idea. too much.
HAIR COLOR: black right now, but it changes all the time
EYE COLOR: every color
PIERCINGS: ears, i miss my eye-brow ring.
TATTOOS: one, soon to be two

r i g h t n o w
WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING?: jeans
WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?: Jets to Brazil - All Things Good and Nice
WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH?: too much mayonaise. ick
WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?: oh so very sunny, and i'm stuck working in the basement. boo-urns.
HOW ARE YOU?: happy to be almost done with school work.

d o y o u
GET MOTION SICKNESS?: yeah.
HAVE A BAD HABIT?: too many.
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?: sometimes. depends on what kind of mood my mom is in.
LIKE TO DRIVE?: yes.

f a v o r i t e s
TV SHOW: The Simpsons and Law and Order
CONDITIONER: l'oreal for curls
BOOK: I'm reading "Red Poppies" right now. But I love lefty books a lot.
MAGAZINE: haVanity Fair
NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK: DVC! (that's diet vanilla coke for the uninitiated)
ALCOHOLIC DRINK: Rum and DVC
THING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND: your mom

h a v e y o u
BROKEN THE LAW: all the time
RAN AWAY FROM HOME: no, but my mom kicked me out for a while when i was 18
SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE: nah, never had to
EVER GONE SKINNY DIPPING: hells yeah, so much fun
MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: only when i was young and obnoxious
EVER TIPPED OVER A PORTA POTTY: no, but i did puke next to one once. i've got pictures.
USED YOUR PARENTS' CREDIT CARD BEFORE: well, i do share one with my dad
SKIPPED SCHOOL BEFORE: all the time.
FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: nopers.
BEEN IN A SCHOOL PLAY: yuppers.
LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: all the time

l o v e
BOYFRIEND: yeah, he's a cutie.
GIRLFRIEND: nope, but I sure am girl bait
SEXUALITY: i like sex
CHILDREN: someday, probably
CURRENT CRUSH: your mom.
BEEN IN LOVE?: yuppers
HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER SOMEONE: oh good god yeah
BEEN HURT?: yes. (bastards!)
YOUR GREATEST REGRET: hmmm... where to start on that one... (I have a history of terrible taste)
GONE OUT WITH A SOMEONE YOU ONLY KNEW FOR THREE DAYS: not really, no.

o t h e r
DO YOU HAVE A JOB: tech support for the computing center at school. but i need a real job now that i'm gradumacating.
YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: a lot of dust. it's been neglected in favor of my iPod
IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?: orange... durrrrr
WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?: flower, sunshine and codeine
WHO MAKES YOU THE HAPPIEST?: my best friend Lizer and John
WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: I don't buy cd's. But I might make an exception for the Punk Rock against Bush compilation from Fat Wreck Records.
WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO?: stuff.

w h e n / w h a t w a s t h e l a s t
TIME YOU CRIED?: saturday, but I don't want to talk about it
YOU GOT A REAL LETTER?: another passive aggressive missive last week from my Mom.
THING YOU PURCHASED: a disgusting sandwich from the bizistro.
TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED: on my computer? Da Ali G show with John. On tv? I can't remember, mine's broken
MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE THEATER: 50 first dates with John on Valentine's Day

y o u r t h o u g h t s o n
ABORTION: i don't know if i could do it, but it should be a woman's choice.
TEENAGE SMOKING: stupid, and yet I find myself constantly bumming tasty tasty lung snacks from my friends.
DREAMS: are lots of fun. but nightmares freak the hell out of me.

Hahahahahaha!

Yessssssssssssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm taking this class that is just totally kicking my ass. I need it to graduate. I need to do well in it to graduate with honors. And, I already forked up one homework assignment and the first programming project. But, we got our midterms back today.... and.....

I got a NINETY-FIVE!

I was talking with a friend of mine about a mutual friend of ours today. We were talking about what an awesome person he is and how sad it is that he's so insecure. Then I was thinking about all of the awesome people I know and how none of them seem to realize how awesome they are. Why is it that fabulous people get so insecure?

Then I thought about it even more and I realized that it's that the insecurities and the fabulousness play off of each other. The people that I love and admire tend to be people who care about others. People who are aware of the world around them. When you don't give a shit about anything or anyone, then your insecurities don't surface... because you're not thinking about other people so you don't worry about what they think about you.

"He's going to the chapel and he's gonna get married....."

Woo ha! My grandparents told me. His girlfriend told me. But, it wasn't until he told me himself (last night) that I got to really celebrate.

My dad's girlfriend (well, I guess now she's his fiancée) is really awesome. I mean, I love her like crazy. She and her kids have been living with us for about a year now, so it was only a matter of time. But I'm so excited that they're going to be in my life on a committed level.

Soledad (my soon to be Step-Mom) is  so incredible. She's got four kids, Ivy (11), Oliver (10), Violet (9) and Eliot (8). I love them all to pieces. The date isn't until October, but I already can't wait.

I met Sole and her kids, a few years ago, under pretty wierd circumpstances. Well, actually, I met Sole because my Dad brought her to Thanksgiving. But I met her kids a couple of weeks later, when a family friend John O'Connor died. I went home for the wake and the funeral and I was pretty messed up. John died completely unexpectadly. He was only in his early 40's and I didn't know that he had some heart problems. He had a heart attack playing basketball and died on the way to the hospital.

Yeah,

so it's drama drama drama these days. And a lot of the drama comes from these silly blog things. You know, it's so easy to be passive aggressive and childish when you don't have to face the people that you're talking smack about. But look at me, I'm sure I do the same thing.

So I made some new rules for myself. They were already kindof unspokenly there... but now I'm putting them up here to remind myself to be good. So, without further ado, Hope's new rules for blogging:

1. Nothing too personal, over-sharingish, touchy-feely. I'm  pretty open person, but there's no need for the whole world to hear about everything.

2. Nothing mean about anybody, unless it's some random waitress or traffic cop that I don't really know. No need to be passive aggressive. If I have beef with somebody, I'm usually pretty good about telling them (or at least letting them know). I try not to say anything on this thing that I wouldn't tell somebody to their face.

3. Keep it upbeat. It's called Hoper's Rants, but maybe I should change the name to "The Stupid Stuff I Did Today That Amuses Me." Nawww... that's not very catchy... :-P

Oh boy it's Spring Break!

Oh wait... I'm not going anywhere. Oh well.....

I was hoping to go to LA to see my sister at her college. But she has break the week after ours and she decided that she would have too much work to do and she didn't want me around distracting her. But it's all good. That whole damn state is going to fall into the Pacific ocean anyways.

I'm just going to stay on campus and try and get some work done. I'm going to go to the gym and pick up some shifts at work. And I'm going to sit in my room and write PHP code until I get carpal tunnel syndrome in a last ditch attempt to get caught up on my senior project. Oh yeah, and John'll be around. That should be pretty fun.

It's a gorgeous day. Why am I sitting at my computer? Actually, I'm pretty impressed at my ability to be sitting down at all. I had a Diet Pepsi for breakfast (and won another free song on iTunes.... cause I'm cool and know how to look under the cap before I buy 'em. I win every time!) and then a two shot mocha about an hour later with lunch. Gotta admit, I'm feeling a bit hummingbired-esque right now. Gonna buzz around so fast that nobody can see me. Woo hoooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok, so technically it wasn't a long weekend.... but it felt like it was about four days long. Maybe the weekends seem longer because now that I've stopped drinking, I remember all of them.... Well, at any rate, this one kindof dragged.